"unta ma-tap nako ang akong inner strength ui."

there are a million butterflies in my stomach. and in less than two weeks, there'll be a million more.

sabi ni kuya ian wag ko raw isipin ang mga bagay-bagay para hindi ako ma-praning. pero anong gagawin ko kung ganon lang talaga ang personality ko? sagot niya? sometimes, kailangan i-shut off ang mind. hay, namiss ko tuloy siya pati ang mga individual consultations namin. haha, pero hindi ko namimiss ang pagpapaiyak niya sa akin.

scary lang talaga isipin na magbabago nanaman ang lahat. andaming pagbabago sa loob ng isang taon. sabi nila, the only constant thing in life is change and yeah, i believe so too pero may paraan ba so that we can, well, keep safe?

ah okay.

ah okay. so ganyanan nalang. grabe.

bakit napaka walang kwenta ng araw na ito?

when reality bites.

just when you find the perfect dress, you find that you also have the perfect excuse not to buy it: you're running low on cash. haha. oh well. reality.

i really don't know why i write all of these on a crazy blog that everyone can read when i have my own personal journal. haha, makes you think what the heck do i still write in that journal.

well, in other news, i finally have a job. yey. not unemployed (or single, haha) anymore.

..because sometimes i can be a jack-ass and not think of how others feel

oh no. i think tsong's right. haha. baka nga meron. at nilabas niya ang emo-ness niya sa crazy shoutout box sa isang website (haha, wasn't that such a give-away?). oh no.

ganun na ba talaga ako ka-clueless? sometimes, i really do live up to my name. sometimes, i can be so dense. no wonder i had no clue. hay. ewan.

pero ayun. sorry nalang sa kanya.

may day.

wala kang paki-alam? okay lang. ako rin, para fair.

hindi kaya nagpinataka lang tayo rito? bahala na. mangyayari lang naman ang kailangang mangyari. bahala na talaga.

you just have to wait it out.

shucks, this is depressing. seriously. but i'll try not to get sucked in, i promise. its a lot of things really, but mostly, its about missing you and hating this crazy situation that we're in. don't get me wrong, i don't regret a single second of everything that we've been through.. all 16 days of this.

haha. 16 days and i'm like this. imagine what i'll be like in a month. haha. oh crap, i hope i survive. haha. well, i think i will.. maybe i'm just over-thinking things, like i allllways do.

but really, gosh, i miss you.. so much. i never really thought i'd fall in love with you like this. but i did and well, i like it.

i just really really miss you. :(

a feeling i just cant shake off

its a little bit of everything, and a loss of a big thing. i don't understand, but maybe i do. haha. ang gulo.

tha past 11 days have been a whirlwind. sobrang saya. imperfectly perfect. its like i found what i've been looking for. masaya, masaya. paalala pa ng isang kaibigan, biyaya ang lahat.

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==> yung pic sa far right, nakaw na picture sa loob ng airplane galing manila pauwing davao. nakaw siya dahil low bat na yung cam, kaya buti nalang at nahabol pa ang pic na ito. masaya, first time ni aligs sa davao. hehe. mas na-excite yata ako kesa sa kanya nun. haha. wuui, emphatic raw.

whatever happened to the people in the picture? si ambo is back home in cagayan de oro, and aligs is there visiting him. as for me, im at home, preparing for the big trip back to iloilo tomorrow. hmm.

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one word for it all: bittersweet