life got cold

life got cold - girls aloud

we text as we eat
as we listen to the freaks
as we wait for the right of way
we text as we talk
we're running as we walk
cos we're several little souls away
we smoke as we choke
as we sink another Coke
and we grin when it blows our mind
we skate as we date
as we slowly suffocate
we're running, we're running, we're running
out of time
my life got cold
it happened many years ago
when summer slipped away
so chill now oh
we've got many years to go
so take it day by day
and long ago
i lost my soul
to some forgotten dream and
how was I supposed to know
it wasn't what it seemed
and even though the last hello
has left me on the floor
i don't believe in Romeos or heroes anymore
we spend as we mend
cos we're happy to pretend
everything's gonna be OK
we shake as we break
never giving 'til we take
and we hate when we have to pay
we flirt while we work
to forget about the hurt
and the trash that we left behind
we sink as we swim
the ice is wearing thin
we're running, we're running, we're running
out of time
my life got cold
it happened many years ago
when summer slipped away
so chill now oh
we've got many years to go
so take it day by day
and long ago
i lost my soul
to some forgotten dream and
how was I supposed to know
it wasn't what it seemed
and even though the last hello
has left me on the floor
i don't believe in Romeos or heroes anymore
my life got cold
it happened many years ago
when summer slipped away
so chill now oh
we've got many years to go
so take it day by day
and on the go
i lost my soul
to some forgotten dream and
how was I supposed to know
it wasn't what it seemed
and even though the last hello
has left me on the floor
i don't believe in Romeos or heroes anymore

sucks to be me.

it's about time

its weird but i cant seem to stop listening to sad songs today... my head is aching and my eyes are red... go figure... i'm listening to the verve pipe right now, just gotta love their song "freshmen". .. funny thing about me these days is that i seem to be terribly inclined to anything punk and angry.. figures. i'm guessing the holidays aren't going too well for me. but don't get me wrong, i love the holidays...just lounging around and doing nothing....

i'm thinking of sending him a novel... well, actually, its a long letter filled with all my feelings, emotions, and discrepancies regarding what happened between the both of us... but then again, my friend told me not to do so. i really dont remember why she told me not to, but she must've probably had a good reason for doing so. i dunno. thoughts are running through my mind right now. i really dont want to keep it all bottled up. i want to walk up to him and tell it all right in fron of his face. but then again, i dont think i have the guts to do so. funny how we can bravely say anything to ourselves and to our friends, but we never really end up doing it. goes to show the mouth is bigger than the brain.

my mom just informed me of the disasters plaguing the asian region. how sad. its weird, though, how all these calamities regarding the water is happening this time of the year in the most bountiful continent in the world. first the typhoons, now the tidal waves and tsunamis. what's next, Godzilla? -- okay, i'm thinking the rhetorical question isnt really helpful, or funny for that matter, but i just wanted to throw in that pun for no obvious reason. dont mind me. the weirdness of my being is just getting to me.

hmm... i just love the calling. cant seem to stop listening to their records... if only love could find us all...

shame on me

i cannot believe i fell into this trap yet again... but wait, i seem to get hauled in by that bait every single time... i just cannot believe im stupefied by this guy who tries to act all cute and shit and actually has a girlfriend.. i also cannot believe that it happened to me four times in a row... im guessing another one like it will break my heart and might just kill me this time.. right now i'm listening to TC and one song just took the words out of my mouth:

what's the way of love?

tell me your fiction / tell me your lies / say to me now you'll never forget this night / i'm feeling emotionless / my head's so clear / my enemies aren't the ones i fear / you know your kiss confuses / this troubling soul / and i found out / that we're all breaking hearts / yeah we're all broken hearts

if only love could find us all / if only hearts didn't have to fall / we can't mislead to make things / so instead we'll sleep alone tonight

what's the way of love?

you are thinking im crazy / but you're blushing of lust / i've heard a lot of nice things / but tell me which ones i'm to trust / the walls are made of glass / and they have been known to crack / but until then / you keep pushing my way / i'll keep pushing you away

if only love could find us all / if only hearts didn't have to fall / we can't mislead to make things right / so instead we'll sleep alone tonight, yeah

well if you wanna take a chance / and try to make things right / you better have a reason to be loved / yeah we all want something more / that it is worth fighting for

if only love could find us all / if only hearts didn't have to fall / we can't mislead to make things right / so instead we'll sleep alone tonight

and if somehow fate were in my hands / would it be enough to understand / why we feel lost in a world so small / if only love could find us all -"If Only" The Calling

i don't understand why things never turn out the way they're supposed to be. its like fate is - in itself - twisted that it never ever ends up right. but then again maybe it isnt my time yet. but if you really think about it, when is my time? when i'm shriveled, old, and gray?! or maybe when i'm laid in a coffin?! its so unbelievable how certain songs remind me of a certain exact feeling at an exact time whenever i hear that song over and over again. sometimes, its heartbreakingly accurate that the song is immediately associated with the person in question.

another funny thing is how music is so intricately woven into my life that if i lose my music, its as if i lose my only outlet of self-expression. lets just say i see myself in what i listen to. my moods are dictated by the kind of music that i listen to. Basically, what I’m trying to say is that if you really want to know how I feel right about now, just listen to the songs “if only” by The Calling and “life got cold” by Girls Aloud. Maybe then someone could actually help me out.