some days, i think i let myself just run with the flow. and because i did that, i had to lose a whole lot in the process. it's not to say that i don't like where i am now, it's just that, well, i pictured things differently. but then again, you don't always get what you want, right? at best, you just get what you need to get by.
i miss writing. and when my boss bludgeoned to death one letter i crafted, i felt heartbroken. i began to question my writing abilities and thinking, maybe i am not as good as i thought i was. perhaps i am just as ordinary as the next person. i don't know.
i hate all these questions. i hate all these uncertainties and doubts.
perhaps i am negative. but that's what keeps me grounded. and being down here is much better for me than being stuck up in the clouds.
and no, i don't want to be stuck up.
