Anyway. What a year. It has been a rollercoaster ride - to say the least. I did not know one could have as many ups and downs as I experienced this year. Let's see, what were the things I experienced this year?
The good:
- I became a yoga teacher
- I started teaching yoga regularly
- I started climbing (indoor, too chicken to do outdoor yet)
- My consulting career is actually picking up (I wanted to write thriving, but who am I kidding?)
The bad:
- The yoga studio I loved (and taught at) closed
- Another heartbreak and lost opportunity at love (so melodramatic)
- I had to sell my first car because it is dying on me
- I had more injuries than all my 30 years combined, all because now, I'm 'physically active'
- My depression came back (and then left again)
The ugly:
- I'm back on the dating scene (and I'm sick and tired of the whole "hi, what do you do? what are your likes/dislikes?"; small talk tires me out TBH)
- I'll need to audition again if I want to keep teaching yoga (I'm naturally an insecure introvert so this is a very real struggle for me)
- I realized I haven't processed (let alone accepted) the fact that I lost my mom
Again - what a year. But, in all of these, there's always something that I've learned. I learned that I am stronger than I give myself credit for, even if sometimes I sure as hell want to give up. I learned I'm resilient and resourceful, and when I really set my mind to it, I can achieve things I never thought I could. I also learned I am a serial procrastinator when given the chance, and when it hits me, there will be emails unread and messages I will not respond to. I learned it's okay to say no, to not be okay, and to choose yourself for a change.
Yet there are some things that I also want to change and do more of, because there's always room for improvement. These are in no means my New Year's resolution, because I found out I don't do well with resolutions. They are, however, a list of things I'm pretty sure I can do (and you can definitely call me out on this at any point in time during 2018).
Here are some of the things I want to do more of in and some of the things I know I need to do (even back in 2017):
- Keep practicing patience (in everything, especially when waiting in line or in traffic)
- Stick to my yoga practice + swimming + climbing combo (ha, sounds like a mixture of things you do in a video game)
- Keep thinking out of the box and making finding creative solutions a regular thing
- Be more grateful and appreciative, by saying 'thank you' more often, or telling people why I appreciate them
- Be more gritty
- Apologize and be accountable for your mistakes (and I know I've made a... lot)...
- ... but try not to be overly apologetic
- Write more letters (this has always been something I've wanted to do, since I want to relive the glory days of letter-writing)
- Be more loving and compassionate (especially to that damn car or that guy that cuts me in line)
- Be more kind and forgiving (especially to all the ghosts in my life LOL)
- (In relation to previous point) Learn to let go
- Be authentic, even if it's scary
- Stop worrying about money (it sounds like a cliché, but it really is just money)
- Read that email!
- Reply to that text!
- Meditate! (and just breathe!)
- Continue my daily Reiki practice
- Keep writing in my journal (and maybe blog more? IDK)
- Travel more!
- Prepare more meals for myself and others
- Do the things that scare you, and remember that the Universe has your back
This is probably not a comprehensive list, but these are the intentions I'm setting as 2018 begins. I'm sure this'll change, or lengthen, depending on how life chooses to happen. But I'm pretty happy with this list, and hopefully, I can keep doing these, and then some.
Thank YOU for making it to this part of the blog and, well, Happy New Year!
P.S. I suck at endings so we'll just have to pretend I ended this blog post with something either: a) witty; b) funny; or, c) insightful. Choose your own adventure! :)
