i wont take no for an answer. i cant believe how close-minded and shallow he is. i hate him, i hate him, i hate him. i cant believe he wont let me go. i'd rather die than say no. why cant he see it my way??? he's so shallow and selfish, he's driving me insane! i'm glad he's always away, and heck i wish he'd be away the same time i'd have to leave. i hate him i hate him i hate him. i regret ever going here. no wonder i was having thousands of second thoughts about going here. i reckon i now know why.
yet again i am hung up on another guy. i knew the others were just playing me like a fool. well newsflash: I AINT STUPID. i'm not brilliant either, but i definitely am not stupid. i knew all those stories were too good to be true.
let's talk about other things, shall we? yet again i am smitten, weak, call it what you want --- just dont call it LURVE cause it definitely aint lurve. trust me. well, i'm back in the game again and here i am for the nth time, trying to figure out things that do not need figuring out in the first place. oh how i feel pathetic right at this moment. but honestly, i go crazy at the sight of him. i hold my breath every time he talks to me. i melt at the slightest touch from his fingers. my heart skips a beat whenever he hugs me. and worst of all, i squeal and scream whenever i get the chance. i hate this. i never knew february could get so depressing. but then again, it is that time of year again, when i --- yes i --- am the loneliest person on earth.
to whoever is reading this right now, i know i dont make sense. better yet, dont try and figure me out because i'll just drive you nuts. take whatever i write for what it truly is --- a bunch of gibberish.
