sooner or later i'll find out that this was all a sham. i'm still into joe but red seems to be occupying my mind lately. no matter, he doesn't seem to be feeling the same way i do. in any case, it's fun flirting but i know getting hurt will suck big time. perhaps its time to be doing something else other than thinking. i'll still love him no matter what but it's time to see myself smiling again. i owe it to red to do so.
*sobbing*
