you are unbelievable.

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grabe. sa sobrang inis ko yan lang ang masabi ko.

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wag nalang tayong mag-usap para wala nang problema. di bale, iilang araw nalang at aalis na rin ako. wag mo nang isiping babalik pa ako.

you're a sell-out. we're all sell-outs.

yep, that's how i felt this morning. being in between sure isn't fun. when you're the only one that people will talk to, when you're the only one who sees the big picture, how come i couldn't say anything to help the situation? because i'm a sell-out, that's why. ugh. an ugly feeling of i-told-you-so is pouring itself out upon me. terrible thing, people who know that compromise is all that it takes yet they don't want to. terrible, terrible how he knows that he should work for it but he really doesn't and i really see how she does and that she's really sick and tired of it all now but he doesn't see that and he doesn't understand, or rather, begs not to. why he is such an ass and why he still brings up the past is a mystery even to me. yet why he talks only to me is an even bigger mystery.

and now i'm leaving. what'll become of this?

sometimes, things don't work out the way you planned them to.

callie: i forgive you. you made a mistake.... so i forgive you.

haha, i dont know if nakakarelate ako.

i don't know a lot of things. i don't know if i'm overbearing, or clingy, or over-doing it. kaya dapat sinasabi. at least that's what i think. and i think that maybe i'm praning but that, well, what is happening here?

few days. a few days. what is wrong with this?

"unta ma-tap nako ang akong inner strength ui."

there are a million butterflies in my stomach. and in less than two weeks, there'll be a million more.

sabi ni kuya ian wag ko raw isipin ang mga bagay-bagay para hindi ako ma-praning. pero anong gagawin ko kung ganon lang talaga ang personality ko? sagot niya? sometimes, kailangan i-shut off ang mind. hay, namiss ko tuloy siya pati ang mga individual consultations namin. haha, pero hindi ko namimiss ang pagpapaiyak niya sa akin.

scary lang talaga isipin na magbabago nanaman ang lahat. andaming pagbabago sa loob ng isang taon. sabi nila, the only constant thing in life is change and yeah, i believe so too pero may paraan ba so that we can, well, keep safe?

ah okay.

ah okay. so ganyanan nalang. grabe.

bakit napaka walang kwenta ng araw na ito?

when reality bites.

just when you find the perfect dress, you find that you also have the perfect excuse not to buy it: you're running low on cash. haha. oh well. reality.

i really don't know why i write all of these on a crazy blog that everyone can read when i have my own personal journal. haha, makes you think what the heck do i still write in that journal.

well, in other news, i finally have a job. yey. not unemployed (or single, haha) anymore.

..because sometimes i can be a jack-ass and not think of how others feel

oh no. i think tsong's right. haha. baka nga meron. at nilabas niya ang emo-ness niya sa crazy shoutout box sa isang website (haha, wasn't that such a give-away?). oh no.

ganun na ba talaga ako ka-clueless? sometimes, i really do live up to my name. sometimes, i can be so dense. no wonder i had no clue. hay. ewan.

pero ayun. sorry nalang sa kanya.

may day.

wala kang paki-alam? okay lang. ako rin, para fair.

hindi kaya nagpinataka lang tayo rito? bahala na. mangyayari lang naman ang kailangang mangyari. bahala na talaga.