Sometimes, There Are Things The Heart Wants to Know

What I'm listening to: Stay Alive, Jose Gonzales.

And so, Jose Gonzales croons, "we'll do whatever just to stay alive". Feels like more or less gospel to me right now. There are just days where you'll give anything to stay - or even feel - alive. It's scary to think that life is passing you by as you just stare at it. The world spins madly on, The Weepies would add. No matter what you've been through, or are going through, the world doesn't care. At least not as much as you would want it to. So it's not really bothered by your sad little drama in the universe you are in the middle of, which is pretty much a small little universe made up of sad, broken dreams and shattered truths. So everyday, you fight, you fight, and you fight some more. You do whatever you need to do to stay afloat. You get old, you get jaded. Yet you fight everyday to stay alive.

Tell me again what's worth living for?

Don't Look Back, The Road Is Long.

I'm trying my hardest to move forward, but there are days when it is hard. And today is that kind of day.

Some days, I wish I didn't have to feel so much. I feel too much, and hurt so hard. My heart hurts so much, I'm surprised it still hasn't burst. I'm barely scraping by, keeping myself from tearing apart.

Some days, I don't know what to believe in anymore. Maybe you could shed some light on that one? Enlighten me.