we need to talk.

they say things change, that things get better. but what if they don't? what if they don't and i am stuck in this limbo, waiting for who-knows-what? i don't want to settle, but i don't want to be selfish either. and i don't think that becoming a people-pleaser is going to help. being stubborn won't as well. people say that i need to find the balance, but damn, it is getting harder by the minute. know what you want, follow what you want, don't be selfish, don't be pushy, assert yourself, you can't always get what you want. i am really dizzy with all of these platitudes. what the hell do you want from me, universe? haven't you taken enough already? do you have to drag me down with you?